Sometimes I Wonder...

I'm sitting here this morning thinking...exactly what am I doing? I've been left feeling very discouraged lately. Seems like I'm not moving forward but only standing still. This really isn't how I pictured myself at this stage in my life. I have chosen a career most would think of calling suicide. It's been very difficult and very frustrating day in day out. I'm tired of waiting for that big break. I've worked very hard to get to where I am...but where exactly am I? Sometimes when I'm sitting alone I get to thinking and I wonder if it'll get any better. Maybe I should stop trying to live this pipe dream and get something that'll put food on the table and give me a steady life. I'm feeling more and more like an out of work actor. I feel worthless today. Sometimes I wonder, why bother?

Unknown Legend

Turn And Face The Strange

It has been said many times in book and in song but never so profoundly. All good things must come to an end. Friday will be known as and end of an era, the last of the great buffalo. Two major changes David Bowie would have a hard time swallowing. First, my tenure at AM 640 will end. It has been a great run but with all, a man must step aside and let another take his place. I have been showing the new guy the ropes. He'll do fine. As for me, well, I don't know where I'll be. This exit leaves a large gap in my daily existence. You see, this place has been home to me for the past little while and it feels as though I'm leaving my extended family. I will miss them all. Another door has been opened, one of a new fresh start but where will it lead? There has to be something beyond that horizon. My second departure is from my current place of employment. I am not leaving the company but simply changing locations. This though is also a huge step. Starting anew, wide eyed and bushy tailed as opposed to the cynical mess I have become. Changes all around me. Monday will be a new feeling all over again. The butterflies will come as they are known to do during these times. I wonder if that's how the earth feels. After all, the Ontario winter winds are not too far behind. Does our earth feel butterflies of change when the new weather nears? I will keep you posted on my whereabouts.

Unknown Legend

"Someday A Real Rain Will Come And Wash All This Scum Off The Streets"

Have you ever seen Taxi Driver? You know, the legendary movie that starred Bobby De Niro as Travis Bickle. Well, I've been feeling like ole Travis these days. No I don't want to drive hack but for those who haven't seen Taxi Driver it's not a good thing. I was driving down Queen Street last night I couldn't help but notice all the garbage and filth that has littered our streets, and I don't mean the garbage you think I mean. Junkies, hookers, crazies, you name it. Toronto has become disgusting to look at. That's at night. Today I was walking down Yonge Street in the middle of the afternoon and everywhere I looked I saw a freakin' crackhead. I think it's time we take a hard long look at what Toronto has become. I recently ran into an old friend of mine. I wondered why I hadn't seen him around town in a while, he told me he'd moved to Richmond Hill with his wife. They'd bought a new house and started their life over. He went on to tell me he was planning on having some children in the near future and there was no way in hell he was raising his kids in Toronto. It wasn't safe. It's not safe. It hasn't been safe in a while. I remember growing up and not having to worry if someone was going to come to my school with a shotgun and blow our heads off. Not that it only happens in Toronto mind you, but the other day a 13 year old kid brought a stun gun to school. Not just any stun gun, a 200,000 volt weapon, 4 times as powerful as the ones police officers carry. So where do we go from here? Who is at fault here? Parents? Have we as a society failed these people? I don't know. Ask David Miller, he seems to have all the answers, or was it Dalton McGuinty? I forgot.

Unknown Legend